I took five trips this year, all of them motivated by my love for Wynonna Earp and Earpers. Here's a totally self-indulgent recap. First stop was Calgary, Alberta, Canada to visit the set of Wynonna Earp. Don't worry, no one likes me enough to just invite me to set, I was the highest bidder in a … Continue reading Traveling Earper : 2018
ISFJ - THE DEFENDER. "If I Can Protect You, I Will" I've only ever really wanted to be one thing, a superhero. I was obsessed. I wanted to be a Power Ranger so I could protect people and beat-up bad guys. I wanted to fight. There's plenty to psychoanalyze there - abused kid, broken home, … Continue reading The Fighter.
The first step is usually the same, “set a goal”, so it's no wonder I don't move forward. For years I've just been flailing without anything to work toward, without a real reason to get out of bed. Y'all know I have all sorts of issues that cause me to be tired as hell all … Continue reading Life Update: Goals, a diagnosis, and motivation.
It's always something. For about as long as I can remember there has been something at any given time that I was such a big fan of that it took over a significant, possibly absurd, portion of my life. I develop a bit of an obsession. The object of my obsession will end up taking up … Continue reading Today I’m Obsessed
"If you want to change the world, you have to find a way to live in it." It's a quote from Into The Badlands. I'm not sure if it was meant to be the least bit profound to anyone, but it just so happens that I do what to change the world and also that … Continue reading “If you want to change the world, you have to find a way to live in it.”
**Content Warning** This is a pretty raw, honest look at severe depression and thoughts that go along with that and may make readers uncomfortable. Current diagnoses: Major Depressive Disorder (Treatment resistant). Generalized Anxiety Disorder (Treatment resistant). Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder. Chronic Fatigue Syndrome (for lack of a better diagnosis). Insomnia (occasional). Possible and past diagnoses: Obsessive … Continue reading I’m Really F*cking Depressed
Most people have never heard of Marfan Syndrome. I know I hadn't until I was diagnosed with it at age 31, explaining a lifetime of injuries and health problems. I may be a bit biased, as someone whose life has been ruined by the disorder, but I find it somewhat fascinating in how it affects … Continue reading My Marfan Syndrome
Here are the answers to a few questions I received on twitter. Thank you to the people who humored me and asked stuff. Question from @MirinaF: How did you feel the moment you knew that you could be yourself and not hide anything anymore in the military? - You know what's stupid? I don't remember … Continue reading Twitter Q&A
“The Secretary of the Navy has determined you are physically unfit to perform the duties of your grade and directs you be permanently retired by reason of physical disability. You are released from all active duties at 2359 on 30 October 2014 and transferred to the Permanent Disability Retired List. [You will have completed] 10 … Continue reading How’d I Get Here?
I want to matter again, and I don't think a blog is going to accomplish that, but at least I'm doing something and I need something to do.